Tuesday, February 23, 2010

It has been almost a year since I have posted. WOW!! I thought I would be much better at keeping up with this than I am. There have been so many things that have gonoe on in our lives since May of last year. I am sure that I don't remember most of them, but a few things do stand out.
We began our new journey of foster care in July, and had our first baby soon after. She was such a joy to our hearts. We picked her up from the hospital and it seemed so surreal. I have never been to the hospital to take home someone else's baby, nor had I ever peered into a sweet tiny face and not recognized anyone. I know that sounds wierd, but every time I have been to the hopital to see a newborn, the comments seem the same...she looks just like...I could not say that. I did not know her mother or her father or any of her siblings. I did know ,though, that she was fearfully and wonderfully hand-crafted by her heavenly Father, and my prayer is that she will grow up to resemble Him. That is my prayer for all of my children. We only had her for 4 days and, we took her to meet her forever adopted family. What an amazing experience! Her mom, dad, sister, and grandparents met us at the door with sobs of joy! I had the same reaction when I saw my babies for the first time. Her mother still keeps in touch and send me pictures.






Our next little boys we had only for a week while their foster family took a break. They were brothers and were 9 months and 21 months!! They were a few weeks shy of being a full year apart. A few hours after we had them the 21 month old was already calling my momma. It was so sweet and sad all at the same time. He gave the sweetest hugs, and gave us plenty of laughs. I was completely exhausted after their brief stay and vowed to never again take 2 at a time.


Our last little one we took for what we thought would be a week, but ended up keeping her for 3 months. She was a bundle of love! She ate well, and slept well, whihc makes for a happy "middle mom". She was moved to another foster home after the 3 months that we had her, so that she could be closer to her mother. She stayed there for about a month and was moved again to an aunt. Her mother was allowed to move in with the aunt too, which is a good situation for the both of them. I talked with the mother last week, and they are both doing great.



Foster care is such a gut wrenching work! Yes, your heart falls in love with every child you have, even if their stay is brief. This should be the reason that you do this kind of work not the reason that you shouldn't. Trust me, there are many families that do foster care that don't fall in love with the kids...it's just a way to pay bills. If you are the kind of person who fears your heart couldn't take it, you are the right person for the job. Your heart can take it because God promises that he will equip you for every good work and that all things (even letting go) are possible through Him. I don't know how he does it, but he just does. He is faithful to his promises. It's up to us to leap out in faith and let Him do his job.


After we let go of our last one, we put our house up for sale and decided that we wouldn't take any more children until our house sold. Well ,we are months down the road from that and we still own our house. Nobody wanted it, except us. UGGGH. We are trusting the Lord to provide all our needs, and he is trusting us to be faithful with our money. Things are working out well.

















In the meantime, our boys started wrestling, and our girls started basketball. There is not a moment to breathe, but we love the activity. I also started homeschooling Haydn. No big deal! So literally, I find myself gasping for air at times. I have always wanted to homeschool...well maybe not always, but since I was in college. I am not sure what made me want to do it...my brief work in the school system or my hate for getting up early? Either way, it is a desire that I tucked down deep that I had to let out. We are in our second month, and I really enjoy it. I wake up with a purpose, and can't wait to jump in. We have our moments, but it seems like we are growing in many ways other than head knowledge. But, we are growing in head knowledge, at least I am.


We start our day out with Bible reading...we are reading the bible through this year. Then it's on to math, grammer, spelling, writing, history, science, art, recess...We don't do all of these everyday, but we make it through the necessities: reading, riting, and rithmatic. My favorite subject BY FAR is history. I love a good story from the past. We are studying the ancients, and are almost through reading The Odyssey. I hope Odysseus makes it back to Ithaca. His queen must be desperate for his return.



I love watching the kids learn, and most of all I enjoy seeing them working together to learn something new. Haydn helps Livian learn her letters and Livian is good at guessing Haydn's math facts. When she guesses the right answer it sends both of us into a good laugh. I am not sure how long we will homeschool, but I hope we will be stretched, and come out on the other side with more fruits from our Father. As far as continuing to foster, I think we will only be able to take kids for a breif stay here and there, at least until I get my feet under me. I know this post does not cover a whole year, but it hits the highlights.

Thursday, May 28, 2009



Our sweet little family...

Monday, May 11, 2009

Friday, April 10, 2009

The Lord has been tugging at my heart lately, and his hand has been heavy upon me. Time spent with him is intense and convicticting and satisfying. To hear the truth he so gently, yet boldly speaks is amazing. Knowing him is my deepest desire, but it seems too far to grasp. I see my unworthiness in light of his holiness. My selfishness in wanting to work harder and be better keeps me focused on me instead of on him. It keeps me working in the power of my flesh instead of the power of his Spirit. It keeps me from complete surrender...Could I possibly ever be good enough or work hard enough or serve long enough to be worthy of bearing his name? Never. This is my greatest struggle...fighting with my flesh. Living a life of holiness, while being trapped in this body of sin. Allowing Him to be in control of everything at every moment, and giving him the glory for it. I John 3:9 & 10 says...No one who is born of God will continue to sin, because God's seed is in him; he cannot go on sinning, because he has been born of God. This is how we know who the children of God are and who the children of the devil are...
It's pretty clear how we are called to live. Being holy is an ongoing work of the Spirit that will not be perfected until we are in heaven. But while we are on this earth we are to surrender to the work of the Spirit and allow him to change us, mold us, and keep us from sinning.

Thursday, April 2, 2009


My sweet handsome boys in blue!!! They led a song at chapel at the high school!! They did so good, and I cried the whole time!!
It has been forever since I have posted. A huge apology to all of my devoted readers! HAHA!!! These past few months have been very hectic. I am finally to a place of rest. It's really great. We spent Spring Break with my mom, and had a blast. I loved sleeping in and not having to cook a meal. Thanks, mom!! Since then, I have been learning how to play the guitar, and I am still writing songs. I really do love it, and hope to share them with all of you one day, God willing. When I was at my mom's, she introduced me to a really awesome book..."Because we love Him", by Clyde Cranford. The author was a true disciple of Christ, and he spent his time discipling other men. His book is comprised of some of the things that he taught his young men...anyway...The Lord is teaching me again that He has called me (and not the other way around) to live a life that is pleasing to him. This is accomplished by me knowing him, which can only be done by God. We tend to be so focused on what we can do for God or on what he can do for us, that we make our walk with Him more about us than about him. We have adopted the world's philosophy of everything being about ourselves, and allowed this concept into our relationship with Christ. For example, we might tithe because God "will open the floodgates of blessings" or we might serve at church so that we appear to be a devoted follower or we might try real hard to keep all of the rules when in fact our hearts are far from him. When instead we should do things because we love him and because we realize what a complete wretch we are without him. And that anything that is good or noteworthy about us is ONLY because of Him and what he has done. I know it's so common for us to think that our walk with Christ is up to us, but we have a relationship with him only because he invited us to...not because of anything we have done. ANyway...I am sounding preachy...I just know that I am so guilty of being man or woman-centered instead of God-centered.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009




My mom, Heather, and I went on the Girls-Get-Away Cruise last week and had a great time. We saw Big Daddy Weave, Shane and Shane, and many great speakers. We were supposed to go to Cozumel, but the boat had problems and we had to reroute to Progreso, Mexico. The times of worship were my favorite, and the food came in a close second.