The Lord has been tugging at my heart lately, and his hand has been heavy upon me. Time spent with him is intense and convicticting and satisfying. To hear the truth he so gently, yet boldly speaks is amazing. Knowing him is my deepest desire, but it seems too far to grasp. I see my unworthiness in light of his holiness. My selfishness in wanting to work harder and be better keeps me focused on me instead of on him. It keeps me working in the power of my flesh instead of the power of his Spirit. It keeps me from complete surrender...Could I possibly ever be good enough or work hard enough or serve long enough to be worthy of bearing his name? Never. This is my greatest struggle...fighting with my flesh. Living a life of holiness, while being trapped in this body of sin. Allowing Him to be in control of everything at every moment, and giving him the glory for it. I John 3:9 & 10 says...No one who is born of God will continue to sin, because God's seed is in him; he cannot go on sinning, because he has been born of God. This is how we know who the children of God are and who the children of the devil are...
It's pretty clear how we are called to live. Being holy is an ongoing work of the Spirit that will not be perfected until we are in heaven. But while we are on this earth we are to surrender to the work of the Spirit and allow him to change us, mold us, and keep us from sinning.